This post is difficult to write, but I want everyone to know that it comes straight from my heart. On Friday my life flipped upside down and I felt as if my entire world was crashing in around me. It’s natural to be sad, and to feel worthless and insecure. It’s also natural to want to grieve, to seek self pity in our own broken-ness. Just yesterday I stood in front of a mirror with swollen, tear-filled eyes and told myself that I was beautiful and deserved better. Sounds pathetic right? And as hard as this is for me…I am writing this post to reach out to other girls who may also be experiencing a similar situation. You are not alone. You are never alone.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
We must embrace all the circumstances that God allows in our life, and trust in Him to bring good out of them. As hard as the truth is to swallow, God planned for my heart to be broken long before I was even conceived. Ladies, I know many of you are shaking your head because you realize this to be true; however, your heart is screaming “ALYSSA, my heart hurts and the emotional pain seems to be everlasting”. But, I promise you it isn’t! I found myself in a similar position a year ago and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed some more. I prayed through the tears and I prayed when I couldn’t find my voice to speak.
Not only did I pray, but I also gave thanks. I thanked God for my family and for my friends. I thanked him for a healthy life that is full of love and support. But most importantly, I thanked Him for allowing me the opportunity to meet an amazing person, who showed me how to be the best me possible. The days turned into weeks and the weeks turned into months and I realized that although it took some time, I had found myself again and was truly happy!
Ladies, I am so so sorry if your heart is hurting right now. Maybe you’ve recently experienced the death of a loved one, or a long, love-filled relationship suddenly came to an end. Maybe you didn’t get the job you’ve always wanted, or have found yourself lost in the current direction your life is headed. Maybe your family is falling apart, or you’ve recently become distant with a best friend. Maybe you have found yourself unhappy with your physical appearance and feel stuck in self-loathing. Whatever it is, whatever turmoil you are currently experiencing, remember you are NOT alone.
I am here for you and I would love to be a friend in your time of need.I may be distant from social media for the next few weeks as I begin to heal and find myself again. Please feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org!P.S. you are a strong, beautiful woman who deserves the best! 🙂